Well... Hello There..

[Lilith]

Well... hi there. My name is Lilith.. well, it's technically Morrigan, but that's not really the point is it?..

I know that some, or many of you here [or reading], really... don't like me. Over the years, that is most likely cause.. I was really good, at making people hate me. IC, but most of all... OOC.

See, there's a golden rule, in RPing. Not just E-feds, but any RP sites period... that rule has always been..

Keep OOC issues, out of IC personas.

See... some people in the past, in various places... chose to, push that rule. Make use of it for some drama, some heat... I SHATTERED... that rule. I used.. any kind of OOC hate that I knew may be pointed at me, and simply abused it against the handlers characters, IC.

Now for a while, some of you found this amusing... I know I sure as hell did, unfourtunetly... this was wrong of me to do. I caused a lot, of unbridled stress, and drama. For myself, for other handlers, and for Admins on VARIOUS boards.

Sometimes, people can forget these places are... for fun, a hobby.. sometimes, we take them too seriously. That's what I did, I took these places far too seriously, and as a result... I ended up harming those closest to me.

If I went on a list of everyone I had to apologize too, I'd run out of characters the thread allows.. but I am sorry, as a whole. There were many personal factors going on in my life, and they weren't very easy for me to handle. As a result, I lashed out in other parts of my life, one of which at the time... was these boards.

I mean it not to sound egotistical [if you can believe me on that] but I do hold myself primarily responsible, for the closing of FCW. For that, I am deeply sorry. Despite the atmosphere that was created, believe it or not... I did try to put a lot of work into helping FCW behind the scenes... though I'm sure, poor Jonny had headaches nightly because of those endeavors.. lol

I'm sure, a lot of you [if you've bothered to read this] are wondering, what the hell this is about?.. That's simple. I miss writing. I know that since there is still a stigmata of.. my "success" in the ring, it would be far better off if Lilith simply... stayed out of the ring lol And I'm fine with that. I'm NOT, HERE, TO WRESTLE...

I want to make that clear, to all those who were starting PMs to Jonny about past situations.. you can close that tab of your browser.. lol I'm only here, to write... if I'm allowed. I'm aware of the leftover, or at least potential, of leftover spite some of you may hold against me. I understand it, and I'm not going to try and change it.

I can apologize, and in the future if some of you wish, I can even explain the personal private issues going on in my life that helped lead to how I behaved, but I know in the end none of it will really change the bottom line... of me having acted, how I acted. So, that's how things are. I simply wish to be here to write. If you all and Jonny are against this, that is fine. I will leave peacefully and move on. Feel free to speak open and honestly about your thoughts and opinions in this thread...

After all, I have no power anymore, remember?.. lol ;D

[Jacob Cruise]

*Starts "We want Lilith" chants!* ;D

Though we never really Rp'd together much, the fews times we did were major fun. So I for sure want to see you back!

I mean, who could forget Lilith sending Cruise and Kincaid to AA? Thats were it all began

Don't know if my opinion matters much atm since I'm just stalking the board here...But eh...who cares! Glad to see you back! ;D

[Lilith]

Lmao... I loved that, sending you two to A.A. was just awesome. That lead to so many disturbingly funny threads between you and Cam. Good times... good times.

[Amanda Wallace]

I'll be the firstsecond to speak on this. (Damn you Cruise, just turn blue and get me a damn CAW already...)

First off, to any of our lurkers that have accounts and such... contribute to the roleplaying environment of the federation before I take any "She goes or I go" threats seriously. I had one of those last time that was completely annoying from a guest account. My concerns are of those with the blue or magenta colors to their name-tags, or those pink ones that are contributing factors to the federation, and they're the ones that I will listen to first.

Secondly, I've been preaching this for a while now. The past needs to be where it is, and these silly little e-grudges need to be dropped. I've spoken highly of it these past few weeks with all that is going on in GCW, simply for the fact that they don't matter. These boards aren't life and death situations, they're not a serious game with high-time rankings, nor are they a job, and shouldn't be treated as such. I've even gone so far as to preach that personal should never mix in here, which is something I've said for a very, very long time as I've seen some of the most awkward of positions pop up, taking thresholds in personal lives. It's a hobby, not a lifestyle.

Now, thirdly, I'm going to focus on this situation. I myself, of course, have had a lot of history with this particular individual, as some of you from FCW may know. And I'm not going to lie. There's times that I was so stressed, the board almost went bye-bye and I went for a long ass drive, between that place and my personal life. There's times that I went on crusades almost against other places and individuals within the e-fedding community, a lot of it can be attributed back to assosciations. Especially this one. I'm also not going to lie in the fact that a lot of our collaborations were a lot of the fun I've had in this hobby as well, and if things were taking with a little bit of relaxation, could have probably turned into awesome storylines, including the hostile takeover of FCW.

So, this brings us to the current. I'm sure those of you that have seen me in OWN, or even on CAWs.ws can see that I've taken strides myself to mend what has happened in the past. I've been approached by Kaoz666 for a special attraction match. I've commented in, been commented by, co-existed with those that have less than reputable histories on all sides. I've opened the doors for GCW as well as MSN for communications to be patched through, to cease all unneccessary problems. I've talked with, damn near counciled many on live and let forget, hence why some of the newer members are here, and we still have a few of the names here that were effected by the recent departures, all with the same underlying meanings.

Nothing is required to be read. Nothing is required to be participated in. History is just that, and grudges need to be dropped. My grudge here, is non-existant, but my responsibility is to those in blue, magenta, and participating pink. It is their call that I'll follow.

[KITSU]

*wants to see the GOLDEN couple again. Sylas + Lilith = GOLD♥

[Jayceon Williams]

Well, if it isn't the original 187-groupie...

Just kidding. ;D


I've had no problems with you. I'd be fine with you joining the GCW world.

[Lilith]

Starry... 187.. thank you.

Jonny.. I indeed agree with you. Despite my past with any Admin, or any close friends resulting in the Fam or this or that.. in the end, it's all up to those actively helping in GCW.

This isn't a situation where a ruling fist can come down and hammer out public majority opinion. It's all up to you. Regardless of the decision, I will respect and understand it.

[Lessien Melwasul]

Would love to see you come back.
We could do that tag team we always dreamed ...
Oh, who am I kidding. It would never work out ... sorry Lover. We were just born to hate you.

Love you.

Whatever. We discuss your so delicate nuances some other day. Besides, we can't really do anything unless your here.

[Lilith]

Mar 4, 2009 18:28:26 GMT -5 Lessien Melwasul said:

Would love to see you come back.
We could do that tag team we always dreamed ...
Oh, who am I kidding. It would never work out ... sorry Lover. We were just born to hate you.

Love you.

Whatever. We discuss your so delicate nuances some other day. Besides, we can't really do anything unless your here.

*glomps*

My Chibi Lover From Another Mother

Currently my rate to therapists is about 300 an hour, so you'd make a mint off of those sessions.

[Lessien Melwasul]

Oh, yes. I want to save you.

What?

Shh!

See? See what you do to me? Is it too late to change my vote? Before something ... happens ... ...

["Mr. Showtime" Bryan Daniels]

Welcome Back

*joins in on chant*

[Bou]

I don't has to say it, but you know me doesn't have a problem with you. Me ish glad you decided to do this. ^_^ I know, I know.. It takes courage to up and do this kinda thing, which is why it took a while. No worries. I lack in the courage department myself. lol As I'm sure you and quite a few other people know XD;

And from what I can see nobody has a problem with it so far. =D I know I'm pink, therefore my opinion takes a back seat to the main roster of mahogany and blues as Jonny did say, but, like Cruise and Bryan... Me would love to see you back. You miss writing, I miss reading your writing that you are doing the missing of... Rawr. XD

Anyways... *joins in the chant* XD;

[Lilith]

Thanks for the support guys, but you shouldn't get too ahead of yourselves. Others still have voices to be heard and such, either way. I'm just glad to have even been given a chance, Jonny could have just said "No fucking way am I going through that shit again" and booted me lol

[Amanda Wallace]

If that was how I rolled... >_>

[Lilith]

You could have, and I wouldn't have blamed you one bit. Honestly. But you didn't, so you're screwed now. So have fun with that lol

Ah the good old days of bridge tossing and what not...