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Post by lindsay on Dec 2, 2007 22:29:51 GMT -5
(Continued from Going For A Swim? ) Lindsay quickly walked after Lilith, at least in the direction she had gone to wards, it wasn't long before she caught up to her. Maybe she wanted her to come after her. Who knows...Well she would know, very soon actually. Lilith was walking no more then twenty feet in front of her now, she had to hear her coming, water was dripping off her and her wet feet were slapping the ground loudly.
Hey, what was that all about?
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Post by Lilith on Dec 2, 2007 22:38:08 GMT -5
"....."
Lilith slowly begins to slow her pace down... her footsteps stop silent. The sound of water dropping off of Lindsay behind her was more then audible. Lilith wasn't sure she could do this. It was to weird, the dream? What the hell was that about? It was kind of OBVIOUS what it MEANT, Lilith got that. She just didn't understand why it was happening PERIOD! It was too odd you know? Lilith hangs her head slowly, licking her lips softly.
".... I don't know what it was about.. I'm sorry Lindsay..... it just happened.
I can't.... I cou-..
.... It's best if I don't try to explain it. Trust me... how have you been since Detroit?"
You fucking serious? You're going to do this right here and right now? Lilith shakes her head softly, her back firmly placed to Lindsay. Both just standing, feet apart but still there. Lilith breathes slowly and softly, her eyes focused on a point in the horizon in front of her. Trying to keep her mind straightened. She'd been broken down over certain events that had happened during her, vacation. Explaining why she did what she did? Would be.... to much. |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 2, 2007 22:46:04 GMT -5
Lindsay takes a few more steps. Moving to within ten feet of Lilith. Her mind begins to take flight again. Was Chicago going to be another Detroit? Was Lindsay just going to be a revenge fuck? Or was that kiss actually something real. She had to find out.
What I mean to ask was....Was that real? Was that kiss a real kiss? Or is this just another one of your games....
Lindsay took a few more steps closers, she could reach out and touch Lilith if she wanted to. She did want to. But she couldn't not now. There were more then emotions flying right now, It was obvious that Lindsay had fallen for Lilith once, only to be destroyed, anyone who paid any attention to that federation in Detroit knew it. But why here? Why in Chicago...was this just a fluke just an impulse? A game? Or something real... |
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Post by Lilith on Dec 2, 2007 22:55:08 GMT -5
"... Games?...
.... I wasn't playing a game in Detroit Lindsay, if you remember correctly YOU'RE the one who went silent..... I tried to make you feel better and everything...
Games... I don't know how many more games I can play to be honest Linds. Karma seems to be kicking me around a lot these days.... I still can't remember him Linds.... I can't remember him..
Can you?.... Can you remember him Lindsay?.. Because I can't, I can't do it. I try and I try and I TRY AND IT JUST ISN'T HAPPENING LINDSAY!...
Why can't I remember him Lindsay.... tell me why. Why can't I remember Jonny?.... Why?"
Lilith turns around to face Lindsay. Her eyes softening, her lips slightly parted from yelling not but a moment ago. Why? Why did she care? She didn't care! But that was the problem! Everyone else had almost seemed used to her, not caring about forgetting Jonny. When someone thinks Lilith is dead set and in a mold that SOCIETY creates? Lilith, can't, STAND IT. She hates that she hates being something everyone thinks she is, or thinking something everyone 'knows' she must be thinking. Why didn't she remember Jonny? Why did she kiss Lindsay? |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 2, 2007 23:01:34 GMT -5
Jonny? Why the fuck would you want to remember him?
It was all making sense, Lindsay had forgot what Mark told her about Lilith not remembering much, something happened but she wasn't exactly listening to Mark.
I'm not exactly someone to ask if you want to hear about Jonny, he is trash, we tossed him off a bridge? You remember that at all? You lead me around like a puppy dog then went and got married to him or almost got married, I dont know, I didn't stick around to find out, and now out of the blue you kiss me, like everything is okay. You hurt me Lilith, you hurt me bad, and now you can't even answer my damn question. Was that a real kiss, I have to know.
Lindsay stared at Lilith with eyes that seemed just plead her case to her. She had to know if it was real, her heart wanted it to be. But her head knew better, her head knew memory or not, Lilith will always be Lilith. |
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Post by Lilith on Dec 2, 2007 23:19:09 GMT -5
"I don't know alright! It's... it's not like I planned it okay? How did I know I'd ever actually SEE you again? It's not something I was plotting out Linds, it just.... happened. I'm sorry alright? I didn't mean for it to, it just did.
It's not that... look, I CAN'T remember Jonny. Literally Lindsay, I had amnesia for a short period of time. All of my memory came back.... except for him. I know OF him I know his name, I know what he used to do. I know that from what people keep telling me, I was married to him. Aside from that? I don't REMEMBER fuck all. I just know facts about him. I don't remember how we met, I don't remember how we got together. I don't remember... how he smells. Or... how it felt when he held me, or ANY OF THAT!
I just, keep remembering.... what it felt like when you held me. And I don't know why! I don't WANT to know why! There's nothing down that path Lindsay! We both know that can't work, you have a child, you have the child's FATHER. Last time I was in the loop you had one of the Cross brothers too. There's... nothing down that alley. So I.. don't know what to tell you, if it was a 'game' or 'real'. I'm sorry... I don't have an answer." |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 2, 2007 23:28:41 GMT -5
Lindsay dropped her head. Nothing down that alley...why toy with her emotions like that. Lindsay just dropped. She practically fell to her ass. Why did she even get her hopes up? Why did she always listen to her heart, she should have known better, it was Lilith, there never was anything down that alley. Her eyes watered slightly but she tried to hold her head high so she would seem like she was weak or a baby.
So much has changed Lilith....so much. I'm not the person you think I am...I don't even know who I am. I'm sorry I bothered you...I just....I just hoped that it was something real, something I could hold onto. I'm sorry I tried going down that alley. You can keep walking....
Lindsay slowly drug herself to a near by wall, just laying her head into her hands. She was stupid, she always was. She never learned a damn thing. A sigh escaped her lips as she ran her fingers part way through her hair before letting them rest on her scalp |
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Post by Lilith on Dec 2, 2007 23:41:01 GMT -5
"............"
Lilith's eyes lower as Lindsay moves away. Lilith closes her eyes and bites down on her bottom lip. Fuck....
She turns around and takes a step, stopping instantly. She lifts her head and turns it to the side, staring at Lindsay, slumping against a wall. Lilith couldn't move. Don't get me wrong, she knew she SHOULD keep on walking. She knew she SHOULD just forget today happened and move on being who she was. She knew all of this, she just COULDN'T do it. Lilith literally, tries to move. Her brain commands her legs to go, that-a-way. Ahead, straight. A line, small case L. All that good shit. Doesn't happen. But her legs do turn slightly, no no no no no.... don't do this....
Lilith shuts her eyes, as by now she knows what's going to happen. She sighs and shakes her head as she walks over to Lindsay, slumping on the wall. Lilith wraps her arms around Lindsay's neck softly, hugging her neck tightly as she slowly begins to lower herself. Pulling Lindsay with her. The two end up crouching down near the ground, Lilith holding onto Lindsay tightly as she stares at the wall. Her eyes, not blinking.
".... Lindsay.." |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 2, 2007 23:47:44 GMT -5
What Lilith? Like you said, there is nothing down that alley. Just go, alright? Go do whatever it is you came here to do, you don't need to baby me. Remember last time this happened? We ended up wrestling around in my room in Detroit. You've hurt me Lilith how much more do you need to hurt me? I've done some bad things since you knew me, somethings I'm not proud of. Why else would I be here in Chicago? Haven't you heard? Marks dead, he was shot three times and toss over a bridge...sound familiar at all? Emily with Greg, his family is taking care of her, and even he is in the loony bin. Don't you understand, that kiss, that was the only thing of who i use to be that was left. That was the one real thing, at least real to me, left in my life. But I'm sorry, okay, I am sorry. I fucked up, I shouldn't have came after you. I'm sorry....
Lindsay just pushes her head deeper into her hands. Tears? No she shouldn't be crying...is she? Who knows her face is hidden. |
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Post by Lilith on Dec 2, 2007 23:56:57 GMT -5
".... I didn't know.. I'm sorry."
Lilith didn't have much else to say about the situation. She didn't know Lindsay was... going through that. She didn't know about any of that, all Lilith's cared about since getting into Chicago is what the hell was happening in her life. Kind of a self preservation state of mind. She tightens her arms around Lindsay's neck softly, she rests her cheek against Lindsay's head softly. God dammit.
"Lindsay... Lindsay look, I didn't know alright? I'm sorry, I didn't know. I don't know everything anymore, I had some blasts of reality in my own life... I'm sorry. Okay? Think about how much it takes for ME to say that? I'm Lilith Creighton, I don't apologize to people you know? I'm sorry.... I'm sorry, hey..
Lindsay... look at me." |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 3, 2007 0:01:31 GMT -5
Slowly Lindsay lifts her head. Her eyes were red and a few tears remained on her cheek. She had lost it. She was crying, damn and she tried so hard to keep her composure. Her eyes settled on Lilith's eyes. Just taking her in. Lindsay put her hands around Lilith slightly more so on her back but just about her waist. She didn't know if she'd want her to touch her but she had to. She had to touch her. You don't just kiss someone in a public place and let everyone see for no reason, there had to have been something there... |
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Post by Lilith on Dec 3, 2007 0:09:12 GMT -5
"Linds...
Maybe.. we should talk sometime, over coffee or something.... alright? Just, take a day to catch up and everything... just coffee, or like a lunch or something.... think maybe, that would be alright?"
Lilith softly rubs Lindsay's arms and sides of her shoulders. Lilith, was nice... to few, few people. It was a rarity, it really really was. She could actually, count them.
Lindsay
Lessien
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See what I mean? The list, is seriously fucking short. Maybe I'm missing one or two, I'm sure I'll get a PM in aboout 30 seconds about one of the ones I missed bitching. But you get the idea. Lilith + Nice = Not happening a whole lot period people. She softly rubs Lindsay's shoulder with her thumbs, trying to calm her down. |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 3, 2007 0:20:12 GMT -5
Lindsay looked into Lilith's eyes, holding a gaze before speaking.
I would love that....
Coffee, lunch? Both signs of one thing...the "Friend zone" Was she just not good enough to be with Lilith? What more was there? She had fucked her brains out ands vice versa, but she can't have the cuddling? the caring? the love yous? the calls just to say hi? the flowers because its Tuesday? Why can't she have that? Also why the fuck are these emotions now just surfacing? Maybe its because she hasn't seen Lilith in a long time...and just seeing her brought all these emotions back. Lindsay let a sigh escape her lips...friends...she couldn't do that...it was her and Lilith or just go it solo...but... |
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Post by Lilith on Dec 3, 2007 0:41:15 GMT -5
"Alright... that's good.. see....? Just, small things at a time..."
Lilith rubs Lindsay's arms a bit more before leaning in and kissing her on the cheek. She stops as she's in the process of pulling her head away. She breathes in softly as she can feel Lindsay's still somewhat fast breathing against her neck. Lilith was very much so attracted to Lindsay. That's how all this started wasn't it? Sexual attraction that lead to lust, which lead to a massive headache from what she remembered. Lilith knew Lindsay's feelings, she just had to figure out her OWN. Was the attraction just physical?.... Or.. was it-
"So... um.... I'm going to go for now.. and.. you still have my old cell phone number right? I'm still using that phone so.... you can call me on that.. and we can set up a time to meet again. Alright?..."
Lilith, hadn't moved. Her face was still next to Lindsay's as she spoke. Maybe she wanted to make sure Lindsay heard her? Yeeeeeah..... lets go with that shall we? Ah shut the fuck up. Like you're not locked down in your mother's basement enjoying the fuck out of even the THOUGHT of another mature thread. You don't even read half of this shit so I could go on and on, about how you DON'T read this shit and you wouldn't even fucking know. Loopholes FTMFW you B! |
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Post by lindsay on Dec 3, 2007 0:49:16 GMT -5
Okay...I'll call you....
Lindsay leaned in and kissed Lilith...one last time? No it wouldn't be the last, she knew it wouldn't be the last but she had to taste her just one more time. Just feel her soft lips caress hers just one more time for the day. She held Lilith tightly, not wanting to ever let go, but she had to. So she did, she slowly let go of Lilith, letting their lips come apart despite her wishing they wouldn't. This was going to be real, it had to be real. Maybe this time...maybe this time it could be what she wanted, hopefully it would be. Lilith had always meant so much to her. Maybe...maybe now she could show her how much she meant to her, that Detroit wasn't meant to be just sex. That there could be...love? Who knows...only time could tell, but while Lindsay would wish and hope.
See you soon. |
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