Post by logansteel on Feb 22, 2008 11:18:47 GMT -5
Hey Guys and Girls of GC-Dub,
Not sure how to start this one off really since it's not really an intro thread although not sure exactly what it is. Some of you know that I RP 3 Characters here for those who don't know I also RP Lauren Blayze and Chelsea Crossfire. I wanted to explain more about my characters don't know if you care or not but I am going to anyway
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Logan's Torment
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Logan's current situation apart from the dual personality thing, is similar to something I went through about a year and a half ago. I girl and were happy or at least I thought so until I caught her with a friend of mine. I reacted badly and lost half of my friends over the whole thing (Went nuts hit him, argued with her and divided our friends up good and proper). My best friend was the guys brother and he chose his little brother over me which I can understand. My current best friend who is my current girlfriends brother jumped in a hit him for pulling me off. I became all withdrawn and I cut and stabbed myself, I guess like an emo but at the time EMO didn't really exist or I hadn't heard of them. My friend Jason helped me through this time and he was the only person who was there for me through the worst of it. I still sometimes feel that I am not worth anything and that others should be here instead of me, it's just the way I am and I can't help but be led by what other people think I try to act like I am not. I am a very negative person and I think it shows in my RPs, that's why sometimes I look like a little puppy wanting praise.
I also haven't mentioned Logan's father and that is because my relationship is strained with my own and I feel that when I move out will most likely be the last time I ever see him. Long story short my parents split up when I was ten and got back together when I was 19 so I guess I still feel my dad walked out on me. We have never really been close and I am no longer obsessed with trying to measure up to him, I'd be selling myself short if I did. I have a degree and to be honest I don't really care to me it just doesn't seem like an achievement at all more like a waste of my time.
My RPs and my own doubt
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I know my RPs are good but I know that I will always feel that everyone else's are better, here are some great RPers that Jason says that if I wanted to I could go toe to toe with. I just always feel that I am not good enough to challenge for titles hence why I didn't and got the MayheM title because I was put into the match by admins. Those of you who I talk to on MSN and that I knew before GCW will know that I wouldn't have challenged for it, and I know that I may not challenge for another title unless pushed into it. It's just the way I am, screwed up yes, I feel a number of things made me this way, I don't blame anyone but myself for it.
Lauren
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Based off my ex that cheated personality wise how quick she was to completely turn on Logan. She looks a lot like my girlfriend but personality she is nothing like her (Thank God!). Talking to Vegas on line and I figure I should say that I would have thrown her out of a window myself. I'll be honest I am playing her as a heartless bitch who cares for herself mostly not saying she doesn't care for anyone else it's just if it comes down to it number 1 comes first.
Chelsea
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Chelsea is an exaggerated version of my girlfriend, she is not retarded she just doesn't see the world as a bad place and sees the good in everyone. I also wanted to make a character that was fun loving and positive and that wouldn't be nasty to people, I see so many people in here that have nasty characters or are selective so I wanted a fun and yes immature character that I could RP easily and relax to take my mind off the dark sombre issues I RP with Logan and Lauren to an extent. Chelsea is my release character if you will and I use her to welcome all, anybody can RP with her. I won't be nasty to anyone with her she's not that type of girl, NICK is the nasty and pure evil character in my character list.
Nice PWN goes to Lacey (Atlanta) a genuine mistake by myself and like the hawk she is picked it up. I played Chelsea too much like Eugene in that post, but Meh it made me laugh and I find few things do these days. Chelsea reminds me greatly of Mel who at the moment has been my rock helping me through issues and of course thanks to Jase for setting us up I know few friends would set up their friend with there little sister.
On being a n00b
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No matter what you say I still feel that at RP I am still a n00b and I have evidence. Talking to Toreno on MSN (Add me if you want revolution2000@hotmail.co.uk) the other day he mentioned Forced RP which I am not sure if I did or not since I don't really know what it means. Thread highjacking I think I also did if you find that I am guilty of these then please just PM me and say so I am a nice guy and won't bite your head off about it I may ask for proof or to explain it though
. Further proof of my n00bness is Lacey's spotting of me saying Miami.
Potential Future Arrivals
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Gabriel Thorn
Chad Webb or Chad and Mark Webb
Brent Steel
Sara Stryder
??
Final Note
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Thank you for taking the time to read this, I know that this may not have been pleasent reading sorry about that. Feel free to comment on anything in here, I know I have a lot of issues but hopefully none here in GCW.
To Admins thank you for answering my questions and having patience with me, you guys are doing a great job here in GCW and often it goes unrecognised or rewarded so I want to thank you guys for all of your effort and making GCW what it is today.
Not sure how to start this one off really since it's not really an intro thread although not sure exactly what it is. Some of you know that I RP 3 Characters here for those who don't know I also RP Lauren Blayze and Chelsea Crossfire. I wanted to explain more about my characters don't know if you care or not but I am going to anyway
.Logan's Torment
=============
Logan's current situation apart from the dual personality thing, is similar to something I went through about a year and a half ago. I girl and were happy or at least I thought so until I caught her with a friend of mine. I reacted badly and lost half of my friends over the whole thing (Went nuts hit him, argued with her and divided our friends up good and proper). My best friend was the guys brother and he chose his little brother over me which I can understand. My current best friend who is my current girlfriends brother jumped in a hit him for pulling me off. I became all withdrawn and I cut and stabbed myself, I guess like an emo but at the time EMO didn't really exist or I hadn't heard of them. My friend Jason helped me through this time and he was the only person who was there for me through the worst of it. I still sometimes feel that I am not worth anything and that others should be here instead of me, it's just the way I am and I can't help but be led by what other people think I try to act like I am not. I am a very negative person and I think it shows in my RPs, that's why sometimes I look like a little puppy wanting praise.
I also haven't mentioned Logan's father and that is because my relationship is strained with my own and I feel that when I move out will most likely be the last time I ever see him. Long story short my parents split up when I was ten and got back together when I was 19 so I guess I still feel my dad walked out on me. We have never really been close and I am no longer obsessed with trying to measure up to him, I'd be selling myself short if I did. I have a degree and to be honest I don't really care to me it just doesn't seem like an achievement at all more like a waste of my time.
My RPs and my own doubt
===================
I know my RPs are good but I know that I will always feel that everyone else's are better, here are some great RPers that Jason says that if I wanted to I could go toe to toe with. I just always feel that I am not good enough to challenge for titles hence why I didn't and got the MayheM title because I was put into the match by admins. Those of you who I talk to on MSN and that I knew before GCW will know that I wouldn't have challenged for it, and I know that I may not challenge for another title unless pushed into it. It's just the way I am, screwed up yes, I feel a number of things made me this way, I don't blame anyone but myself for it.
Lauren
======
Based off my ex that cheated personality wise how quick she was to completely turn on Logan. She looks a lot like my girlfriend but personality she is nothing like her (Thank God!). Talking to Vegas on line and I figure I should say that I would have thrown her out of a window myself. I'll be honest I am playing her as a heartless bitch who cares for herself mostly not saying she doesn't care for anyone else it's just if it comes down to it number 1 comes first.
Chelsea
=======
Chelsea is an exaggerated version of my girlfriend, she is not retarded she just doesn't see the world as a bad place and sees the good in everyone. I also wanted to make a character that was fun loving and positive and that wouldn't be nasty to people, I see so many people in here that have nasty characters or are selective so I wanted a fun and yes immature character that I could RP easily and relax to take my mind off the dark sombre issues I RP with Logan and Lauren to an extent. Chelsea is my release character if you will and I use her to welcome all, anybody can RP with her. I won't be nasty to anyone with her she's not that type of girl, NICK is the nasty and pure evil character in my character list.
Nice PWN goes to Lacey (Atlanta) a genuine mistake by myself and like the hawk she is picked it up. I played Chelsea too much like Eugene in that post, but Meh it made me laugh and I find few things do these days. Chelsea reminds me greatly of Mel who at the moment has been my rock helping me through issues and of course thanks to Jase for setting us up I know few friends would set up their friend with there little sister.
On being a n00b
============
No matter what you say I still feel that at RP I am still a n00b and I have evidence. Talking to Toreno on MSN (Add me if you want revolution2000@hotmail.co.uk) the other day he mentioned Forced RP which I am not sure if I did or not since I don't really know what it means. Thread highjacking I think I also did if you find that I am guilty of these then please just PM me and say so I am a nice guy and won't bite your head off about it I may ask for proof or to explain it though
. Further proof of my n00bness is Lacey's spotting of me saying Miami.Potential Future Arrivals
==================
Gabriel Thorn
Chad Webb or Chad and Mark Webb
Brent Steel
Sara Stryder
??
Final Note
========
Thank you for taking the time to read this, I know that this may not have been pleasent reading sorry about that. Feel free to comment on anything in here, I know I have a lot of issues but hopefully none here in GCW.
To Admins thank you for answering my questions and having patience with me, you guys are doing a great job here in GCW and often it goes unrecognised or rewarded so I want to thank you guys for all of your effort and making GCW what it is today.
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