Back to drinking? (o2a, REALLY!!!)

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Where had all that anger come from that she expressed in her last appearance in a promo? Watching it later Mikki almost couldn't believe some of the things that came out of her mouth. Especially her deepest darkest secret that she never wanted to reveal to anyone. Indeed the incident with her father had happened, it was something she tried to hide deep inside and bottle up. She had never told a single soul before that moment. Not even Kevin had known about it, but he did now. Everyone did, she was gonna be ridiculed for her father's actions when he was in a drunken anger. It was almost...enough to...forget almost. It was enough to drive her back to drinking. What reason did she have to stay sober? Her & Jessie hadn't seen each other in a couple of weeks. Not even a simple phone call between them. Was Jessie ashamed of Mikki? Having a loser as a lover/student? Was she not even good enough for her?

All of this was running through her mind as she sat down onto a barstool in some bar in whatever town Lock Up happened to be that week. Right now the show, fans, and not even Jessie mattered to the depressed and confused Mikki. Her mind felt like it was pulling itself apart at the seems. She didn't know what she wanted. Part of her mind wanted to go crawling back to Jeff, trying to beg for forgiveness and a second chance. Yet another wanted to stay with Jessie, and another wanted to just be alone for a while. To see who Mikki really was as a person. All of them though, had one thing in common. They wanted a drink. They wanted an escape from the mental pain she was in, at least for a couple of hours. Which was why Mikki was in this sports bar.

Listening only slightly to some sports game on the TV in the background Mikki sits and stares at the large selection of alcohol that was available to her right now. She wanted a drink so bad right now. It was the only escape she had ever known that would chase away the demons of her own mind at least for a little bit. When she was drinking was the only time she was actually happy. The fears & doubts left her. The worries were gone. She could actually laugh and smile when she was like that. Oh how she wanted a drink, but something inside of her wouldn't let her order anything. The small part of her that knew drinking to chase her problems away wasn't a solution was putting up a valiant but losing fight.

Looking down Mikki pulls out the necklace Jeffery gave her on Valentine's day of last year. It was so beautiful, unfit for a little slut like her. Maybe that was enough to push her over the edge as she looks up to the bartender who was waiting patiently for her order. Taking a deep breath Mikki nods at him.

" I'm ready to order. "

" What will ya have? "

Thinking it over for a second Mikki replies.

" Just give me a double of Jack. "

Giving her an "okay" look he goes about making the drink while trying to find out what was wrong with her, it was obvious there was.

" So what's eating at you? Why would a beautiful young lady like you, be here looking like it was the end o' the world out there? "

Before she could answer though...

[Shelby Danes]

Shelby doesn't go to bars, yet, here she was, not hoping for a drink, but wondering how she allowed herself to come to such a place. Everyone seemed to be busy with something, devoured by their own world, wondering what causes what, and what seems to make their own universe tick. That is, until she spotted someone who looked rather lonely at the counter. Shrugging, hoping that she wasn't going to be a bother, she decided to go greet herself, the worst she could do is make herself look like a complete fool, but it's not like she hasn't done that before.

"You look somewhat disturbed, what's wrong?" She asks, before even greeting herself as she reaches Michelle. She was rather blunt with this, and often forgot to do the simplest of tasks. A moment of silence later, and it hits her, "Oh, sorry about that, I'm Shelby Steele, just your concerned not-as-avid bar-goer."

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Looking at Shelby, Mikki doesn't smile at all. All she does is nod and respond.

" I'm Mikki, Michelle,...whatever the hell ya wanna call me. Doesn't really matter. I was trying not to be a bar-goer any more. Tried going straightedge. Ya know, no drinking, no smoking, no drugs. Found out it wasn't for me. Drinking is sadly the only time I'm happy. My life really sucks. No friends except Jessie, and I'm not even sure if she wants to be seen with me anymore.

[Shelby Danes]

Shelby's smile drowned into a concerned one, as Mikki had just fed her a depressing couple sentences. Placing her left hand on her back, and rubbing it comfortably hoping Mikki wouldn't mind, she leaned in closer, and began to try and make her feel better. "Hang in there Michelle, not everything can be all bad at once. There's always something other than personal relationships, accomplishments, and general life that you can go towards. Life is always going to suck, even during the "good" parts, because a good moment always comes to an end." Leaning back in her chair a bit, to relax a little more, she continues, "If you need to drink, then down a few; just don't let it become a habit. I don't drink, hell, I don't even know why I'm here, I just felt like doing something different. If you want, I'll keep watch, making sure you don't do anything you might regret, okay?" Shelby was talking in a such a manner where it seemed like they've been friends forever, when in reality, they just met. She usually hated taking this tone, but nevertheless, she couldn't change it now.

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" I never drink till I'm falling over shit-faced. Just enough to chase away the bad thoughts. "

[Shelby Danes]

Not entire sure how to respond to that, Shelby continues to rub her back for some type of comfort. "Bad thoughts or not, after your done, they tend to come back anyways Michelle." Shelby had been in this situation before, just a couple years before, when she too, felt like the entire world, including friends were against her. "Just don't abuse yourself, okay?"

[Jean Bordeux]

Jean was sitting on the other side of Mikki, he herd ALMOST everything that she has said. He turns to look at her and speaks.

[glow=green,2,300]Yooz seems to haves a hard times mon ami. Anyzing zhat Iz could doos fer yoos? Ive veen zrew zots in vy zife, its ze veason vy I ams whos I ams todays.[/glow]

Jean waits for a response.

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Not really knowing why, Mikki opens up and just starts to say what she's need to for a while.

" Thanks, Jean...Shelby...I just think I need someone to talk to. I mean I have so much stuff I need advice on. I have a man I still love that I had to break up with. I'm in a relationship with my best friend. I'm not sure at all about my career. Hell, I'm still not even over Pyro's death. I'm confused all the time, I don't know what I want. I don't know who I want. I'm a total wreck. I don't even know who I am anymore. "

[jenkins]

And exiting the bathroom were the Jenkins, having changed their forehead gashes for a new one.

Look Lester I look like a damn sultan with this

This damn gash doesn't let me see well! it covers half of my left eye

Whatever let's eat something.

The Jenkins get near the barstool where Mikki was

Hey could you give us some of this FREE[/u] fried corn you serve to people as a courtesy?[/font][/color]

The bartrender staring at those two miserable human beings decides giving the free fried corn at them

I can't see a shit with this gash.

Lester turns and accidentaly knocks over a bottle of beer and a glass

Oh damn... Jasper help me damnit

Forget bout the damn glass, let's just relax here right? We have just been hospital to hospital, seems everyone in GCW has agreed to make us bleed like stuffed pigs. Neverthelesser, let's see if there are some GCW big cats here.

I toldcha I can't see a damn. But look there is a redheaded girl there that looks sad

And there's the gay guy who whooped our asses! And look another girl is with her!

Let's salute that gay guy and show him that we ain't rancorous

Tsk! Did you forget what the homosexuals did to us?

I think we should get over that Jasper, maybe it was our fault that our girls turned out to be lesbians. Or not our fault at all, could probably be that they were from the begining

Shh! this theme is tabboo! The only girlfriends we had and we loved and they did that to us, sorry but I can't forget and now let's not speak about that, let's go to cheer up that girl

The Jenkins aproach where the trio is

Hey there Jean, no bad blood among us, the best guy won.

Jasper and Lester extend their hands at Jean as they see Mikki and Shelby

I wish I could see ya well, ya look like nice people.

Yeah, me and my bro here just have some fried corn, want some?

With his other hand Jasper offers the girls some fried corn. In a total uncharacterstic display of sportsmanship, the Jenkins seem not to be the antisocial guys they were, they are still hygienically challenged though

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Looking at the two newest guests Mikki doesn't really know what to think about these two. Much less how to respond to them. So she simply hold her hand up as the bartender finally gives her her drink.

" No thanks, I'm not hungry. "

[jenkins]

Jasper shrugs

Fine, more corn for me then

Lester blindly punches him on the arm.

'scuse my bro here, he's a bit mean. Neverthelesser, we saw you that you are somehow depressed, and we thought that me and him, could cheer you up, or atleast make you feel better.

Yeah, what's the problem? You shouldn't feel bad, I mean you are young, you look good., and... like everyone else you are taller than us. You have lost matches lately? So have we, but we ain't depressed, you win some you lose some.

Uhm yeah, yeah, don't let loses bring you down ehm.. Mikki

The Jenkins thirsty of alcohol, ask the bartrender for a glass of water from the tap....

Maybe... you wanna talk about it? You'll feel better for yourself.

[Jack McArthur]

" Leave the poor Shelia, alone you two. "

Hold on, where was this voice coming from. Well right behind them of course. It wasn't usual for Jack to make an appearance at a sports time, but life is about trying new things out, and taking risks. Jack's life is exactly like that. He pulled up a seat, next to Shelby Steele. Jack then slammed his hands onto the bench as he searched for the bartender.

" What can l get you sir. "

Ahh, heres the bartender.

" I'll like ya' strongest stuff, and l'll shout these people a drink. "

Why was Jack being so generous? Because he was a nice bloke, and he was celebrating his win from MayheM. Theres nothing like having a drink after a match. Great way to cool down.

[Amy "Sapphyre" Rhoades]

"Another Bud Light..."

She was further down the bar. Her early flight back to Chicago got cancelled over weather. So, sighing, she had to return to her hotel for the night. But not after getting good and hammered...

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Humoring the slighly...well...very ugly brothers Mikki replies to them.

" Well, my girlfriend is in the hospital, I don't know what's wrong with her. My relationship with her is kinda iffy at the moment. I might still have feelings for my ex-boyfriend. My career is in the toilet right now, and above all I'm not even at home in my own skin right now. Happy? "

[jenkins]

Did she just said girlfriend?

I... See

Jasper and Lester were really two unlucky guys, the girl they wish to help was lesbian, their (self-proclaimed) nemesis'. Swallowing what's left of their pride, they decide to keep helping, however they note certain negative atmosphere.

Well I hope things get better for you, and we have seen some of your matches, and it isn't that bad, sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose, you just have a bad streak.

And your relationship... It will get better. Yeah it will if you do something instead of sitting here drinking alcohol and thinking about tomorrow.

Yeah.

Lester turns to grab his glass of water but as he can't see he accidentaly knocks the glass over Jack McArthur's pants making him look like if he pee'd on himself

Uh sorry guy I can't see.

Jasper then remembers something that was said

Why are you all people looking at us like that? Have we done something wrong? We are just trying to cheer Mikki.