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Post by vault on Dec 9, 2007 5:29:16 GMT -5
Continued from "What's Up?"
It didn't take Mikki very long to get to the cafe. Maybe 10 minutes at the most. She just wanted to get this over with. She wanted to face her punishment. Deep inside she didn't really want to break up with him. She still wanted to make it work...she wanted to still be with him, but in her mind and heart she knew it wasn't possible. She had betrayed him by sleeping with Jessie. She doubted Jeff would forgive her for that...or even love her anymore. She had to do this though...she couldn't live with the guilt of having not told him the truth...she just couldn't.
Entering the cafe she looks around for a secluded table, she didn't want to make a scene when she told him. There was another reason for picking a public place though. Despite looking for a secluded table she wanted to be seen just in case Jeff does have a violent side against women. She was almost for sure he didn't but when a man finds out he's been cheated on he might have a change of heart on that.
Finding the table she thought would be perfect she sits down and looks at the waitress who quickly followed her to the table.
"Somethin' wrong there suga, you look like you been cryin' or somethin' "
Mikki hadn't bothered to clean up her face, she still had tear streaks running down her cheeks. Looking up at her Mikki tries to force a smile and responds.
"I'm just waiting for somebody..hoping he gets here soon."
Mikki really wouldn't have to wait very long because... |
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Post by j on Dec 9, 2007 15:45:36 GMT -5
=/=\=When Jeff had gotten that call from Mikki, he was ecstatic. The fact that she was in Chicago? It just made his day. The last time he had saw her was back in Detroit before she left for Toronto... Just thinking about the amount of time the two had spent apart, just made Jeff even more happy that he'd finally see her again.
It hadn't taken him long at all to get to the cafe. The longest part of his journey was finding some clothes that didn't look horrible. Sadly, all he had was a Starstruck T-shirt and a pair of jeans. That Starstruck shirt had been through a LOT. But it was always nice and clean... well... if it smells and looks clean... its clean... right? 
Walking into the cafe, Jeff looks a round. He looked at the people in the cafe. Old People, more old people, ugly chick, more old people... then, BINGO! The redheaded woman whom he was looking for. He made a beeline for her table. Before he could get there, a waitress stepped in front of him, obviously he was in her way... even though he was walking straight... but... he stepped aside and continued his walk towards Mikki.
Finally reaching his destination, he stops. Clearing his throat, he starts to say in a joking voice.=/=\=
"Long time no see Mik..." |
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Post by vault on Dec 9, 2007 18:20:54 GMT -5
Seeing him smiling like a kid at Christmas Mikki tries to act really happy as well, but she can't. It was to hard for her. Breathing a big sigh she stands up and walks over to him and wraps her arms around him tightly...she wanted atleast a couple of last good moments with him before she did what she came to do.
"I'm sorry for staying away...just trying to fulfill what used to be a dream is hard...and becoming a nightmare. But How have you been since Detroit?" |
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Post by j on Dec 9, 2007 19:16:53 GMT -5
"Me? Well... everything's been over all quiet so far... without you things are just boring... I don't know what it is, just whenever your around things are just so much better..."
=/=\=He smiles again. He was truly happy to have her back in his arms. He held her tightly, not really caring who was watching or if it bothered them. He lowered his head and gave her a kiss. Now this wasn't just an everyday 'I love you' kiss... this was one that had months of build up of passion behind it. The kiss lasted for a decent time... but... he didn't really feel her kiss him back... which was sort of odd to him. Stopping, and pulling away a little... he sees her tear streaked cheeks finally. Well, he had saw them, it just didn't register with him....=/=\=
"Whats wrong Mik?" |
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Post by vault on Dec 9, 2007 21:05:07 GMT -5
Looks like there was no time for at least on last good memory. Swallowing hard she looks down at the floor in shame and tries to tell him that way.
" I...I...I..."
She couldn't do it that way...try looking him the eyes then...maybe that will work.
"...cheated on you with Jessie Blair...I didn't mean for it to happen...we were drunk...and it just kinda happened. I've felt SO bad about it...that's why I've stayed away...I didn't really want to tell you...but I made myself do it...to punish myself for doing it by seeing the look on your face...hoping you would hate me for it...because you're too good for Trailer trash like me...you deserve a woman who will be loyal and not get drunk and sleep with another woman...I don't deserve a man like you...Sorry." |
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Post by j on Dec 10, 2007 8:17:11 GMT -5
=/=\=Expressionless could be a good word to use right now... or maybe shocked could work too. Jeff just stood there... staring. Just, what she said, wasn't just clicking with him. Its not that he didn't hear it, he just wasn't...understanding it. It was just, a bit difficult to register in just one blast.
Taking a deep breath he just tried to think of everything she said. While trying to think of it, he let go of the hug he had latched onto her... He was still in a state of shock from the confession of sorts. He tried to say something, anything that would try to make this situation a bit more understandable... but he couldn't think of anything. Just, what she had just said just lingered in his thoughts... and resulted in him just standing there in complete silence.=/=\= |
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Post by vault on Dec 10, 2007 13:40:10 GMT -5
Hanging her head in shame Mikki continues.
" I understand if you hate me...I want you too...I betrayed you...and for what little it matters I am sorry...i wish it wouldn't have happened...but it did...I can't change that. If I had known wanting to further my career would have done this...I would have just quit after Detroit...and gave up my dream." |
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Post by j on Dec 10, 2007 13:57:55 GMT -5
=/=\=Jeff just stood there. He wasn't sure what to do. A part of him wanted to comfort her and tell her that it was alright and that it honestly didn't matter... but... another part of him just wanted to walk away from this situation, and not even deal with it. It was a difficult situation to be in...
He sighed deeply. This whole situation... it should have never happened. If he had gone with her... this wouldn't be happening... if he had went to her in Boston... this wouldn't be happening. But no, he made decisions... and he had to deal with the consequences. Through his internal mental battle... he still listened to every word she said... it just didn't help any thought.=/=\=
"I.... don't know what to say..." |
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Post by vault on Dec 10, 2007 14:08:27 GMT -5
"Yell, scream, call me names...PLEASE say something. PLEASE just say something...
She thought and felt she needed to be yelled at...belittled...demeaned...told how much she hurt him...anything. She just needed to know that he felt something. Love...hate...anything but indifference...anything but that. |
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Post by j on Dec 10, 2007 14:16:16 GMT -5
"Honestly Mik? I couldn't do that to you..."
=/=\=Hell, he can't even be angry at her... guess love does that to ya eh? So this whole situation, was wrecking havoc on his mind. Sure, he wanted to be angry, he SHOULD be angry... but, he wasn't...=/=\= |
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Post by vault on Dec 10, 2007 14:29:13 GMT -5
Indifference? If so...she messed up worse then she thought.
"I'm such an idiot...cheating on you...a guy who gave me everything I wanted & asked for. Expecting nothing in return except Love & Faithfulness. I know this is probably to much to ask but If I can get myself straightened out could you give me another chance? I'd understand totally if you said no..." |
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Post by j on Dec 10, 2007 15:06:59 GMT -5
=/=\=He wanted to say yes... he really did. He wanted to... but he just couldn't. It was like, there was a barricade from him saying it. It just wouldn't come out. Taking a deep breath, he looks at her. He could see how much she felt bad about it... but... it just couldn't make him say yes...=/=\=
"I'm not sure Mikki... I'm just not sure." |
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Post by vault on Dec 10, 2007 15:37:21 GMT -5
" I understand..."
Feeling slightly uncomfortable right now Mikki looks down in shame again...
"I do still love you...as little as that means now though..." |
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Post by j on Dec 10, 2007 16:07:37 GMT -5
"Yeah..."
=/=\=Right now wouldn't be a good time to continue this conversation. Jeff was just confused at the situation. It was something he just never thought would ever happen. He thought Mikki was the one... but, maybe she wasn't... He didn't know, this was all just so complicated. He needed time to figure out what had happened, and time to just figure out if there was anything at all he could do to some how salvage their relationship.
Stepping back a step, he turns and walks out of the cafe. He didn't even look back, this was just... something he needed to straighten out with himself before he tried to work it out with her. He wasn't sure how long it would take him to get it together, it could be days, weeks or even months... =/=\= |
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Post by vault on Dec 10, 2007 16:40:20 GMT -5
Was he confused? Did he just not care? The mood she was in right now she guessed he just didn't care...that's not something she could handle...at least if he got furious she knew there was maybe possibly still something there...but him just walking out on her? No way to really pull something out of that. Hearing the waitress come back Mikki looks up at her.
"Can I get the Steak & Egg breakfast to go?"
"Sure can, how would you like those?"
Thinking for a second Mikki replies.
" Medium rare & Over easy."
Nodding her head the waitress replies.
"Comin' right up there sug."
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